12/15/2025

T, My Princess,

Today, I felt like I kept hearing echoes of whispers in the moments of silence that existed in my head. It almost feels like something of a soft hopeful glow of a sunrise. And I will tell you why now.

Something’s changed. With you. With us. Since Saturday. I can’t explain whether it’s something I did, or something just came to light or if it was just passing of time that brought it on. But I know that it was like a tectonic shift that happened in how we are together.

And oh, don’t for a second think this is a bad thing. It is a wonderful thing. Like probably the most wonderful thing that I have experienced. It’s like a door just swung open and let me inside. And I’m so glad I’ve had the chance to enter inside and I’m glad you trusted me enough to let me in.

The other day, I was watching The Office. And there was this episode when Pam returned to work and she’s having a tough day, no sales and it’s all bad. And she turns to Jim and says – Tell me everything’s going to be ok.

And without missing a beat Jim responds to her saying – Everything is going to be just fine. And the moment he did, Pam just relaxes completely.

But I saw something. In Jim’s eyes when he said it. There was a shadow. The smallest shadow. But it was there. I thought for the longest time on what it was and I was able to figure it out today. Because I lived this moment with you yesterday.

When I said those words to you, I knew the shadow that crossed my mind. It was one thought – what if everything doesn’t go exactly as we planned it? Will she hate me because I couldn’t make it happen?

I sat with this thought for the longest time today. Dissecting it over and over and over again. And that’s when it hit me. Nothing will ever go exactly accordingly to plan. We have no control over what will happen. We can influence them for sure. But things will unfold exactly as they should.

The only thing that matters is that knowing we are going to be alright because whatever comes through, we will face it together. And that’s the only thing I can promise you when I say – Everything will be okay. It might rain, it might be sweltering, it may snow, we may fall, we may bleed, but I will hold your hands through it and protect you as we go.

You asked me what was different when I am with you. It’s this. Every time before I created the circle around those I loved. And I absorbed blow after blow after blow. Until i was broken and bled. But when I am with you? You say the things that i wanted to hear all along – I want to protect you from everything.

Which is why when I imagine us going through life, it’s not just one person holding the fort. It kind of feels like we’re in the tightest embrace and we are rotating as we go, so we end up sharing our time in the sun. But we make sure we dont let one person stay there for too long and burn. Because that’s just who we are.

You are my safe space too.

Love Forever And Always,

XOXO,

A