12/11/2025

T, Mi Amor,

There are a bunch of things that have happened and continue to happen with us for which I can provide no literal explanation. Like nothing that is grounded in logic or science which can explain them or justify them. I don’t know what it is. Is “The Universe” even real? Is that why we met? Is that what it is that drives those uncanny coincidences with us?

I don’t know the answers to these questions babe. And I don’t think anyone in this world can explain it either. But there’s no denying it’s real that much I know for sure. So sometimes it’s ok to just be thankful and accept some of the things we are given. And I don’t think that’s a bad thing. Maybe its nor important why we found each other, but rather its important that we did.

We have both been through enough and more pain in our lives until this point. I think we have experienced things that no human should ever go through in their life time. And the worst part was not only did we go through all of this alone, but it felt like relentless gut punches over and over and over again. Sounds familiar? Like there have been times when I have seen up and cried and said – can you please stop? I can’t take this any more.

And yet we do. We call it a bad day. We sleep as much as we can. We wake up and live through it all over again. And that’s strength that is immeasurable. People who come close to breaking but don’t and yet lift the weights that are insurmountable.

And all this while I have written to you from a position of where I am or where we are. But I am writing to you today from a position of who I want to be for you.

I know life’s not been kind to you. And I think the relentless hits have got you living in a place where you have known only one thing – There’s no place called home for me. There have been things that have happened to you which have just reinforced this. I know. Like how can one person build a sense of security or safety when everything they love have always been taken away from them? And I know it’s because of that, that you have built your home for yourself within yourself.

But today, I want you to know that it’s not true any more. There is a perfect symmetry to the way we love. Both of us love each other in the exact specific way that the other wants. I want someone who just chooses me. Every. Single. Time. And i know what you want is to have someone who shows up. Not in your strongest moments but in the weakest ones. In the messy ones. In the arrghhhhhhhhh whaaaaat the fuuuuuck is going on kind of moments.

And I want you to know this – I am your home. Come into my embrace and live there. In perpetuity. Because I will make sure that nothing or no one harms you. And that you are safe. And that you can be whoever you want to be in this space, and you will still be loved. And you will still be loved in ways that feel fuller, deeper, and safer than everything that came before put together.

I love you, in more ways than you can imagine. I see your smile every time I blink.

Love You Forever & Always,

XOXO,

A