11/25/2025

T, my sweetheart,

For the past 25 days now, in some way or the other, in some form or the other, you are constantly on my mind.

Today I thought back to the moment in the car. When we were just sitting and chatting. I remember I made some wisecrack and your immediate reaction was to bat your eyelids repeatedly and turn to face me. It was your way for saying – excuse me? Did you just say that?

I was looking at you and smiling. And I remember thinking, that repeated batting of your eyelids, reminded me of a butterfly. The most beautiful little blue butterfly that just had emerged from the shadows and into the sunlight and sat on the most playful plumeria. (Yea that’s what it’s called ☺️ Don’t forget it this time.)

And as I thought through that time and as I write this, I think of you as such a wonderful little butterfly. I think the gestation over the past 26 years kind of led you to come out here, outside of your cocoon. But I think for the longest time, you flew in the shadows. And I think it was largely because the few times you did try to get out of the shadows you got caught in the storm clouds that had come out.

But I see you now. I see you are still scared because you think that the storm might show again and you wonder how you will be able to fly if you get caught too bad. But I think very deep down you felt the warmth that you craved for the longest time. And i think it’s just so overwhelming that you don’t bask in the sunlight just yet, but take it in little sips and come back into the shadows. Lest it burn you.

And I’m not going to lie. There will be a few storms every now and then. After all, night does follow the day. But the most important thing is that dawn comes too after it is darkest.

And I look at you and smile and I wait. Because I know that it’s ok to be scared. Light can be immensely scary. It can illuminate the things that we don’t want the world to see too. But when you find that someone who can see you in the light, the best of you and the rest of you, and they still stay, that’s when you know you know they aren’t like the rest of the world. They become your world.

So when it’s dark out and you wonder where the light is, look within, because that’s what illuminated the world to begin with.

Love Forever & Always,

XOXO,

A