1/4/2026

T, Mi Amor,

At this point right now, there’s only one thing I want to do. To just hold you, to carry you in my arms, to wrap a blanket around you and have you curl up against me and just caress your head and put you to sleep.

I had no idea. Not a fucking clue. On what life is like for you. I still don’t know the reality, but today, I had a chance to sneak a peek into it.

I wonder if I ever told you how I got onto Reddit? I had seen funny posts now and then on Insta reels and stuff, but never really spent any time on it actually. After I went through my last breakup, and I was hurting badly The Counsellor suggested that I should actually go and live with someone else. Like in someone’s house. So I can get a taste of what their life looks like. See how other people live. Obviously I had logistical challenges to do that. Primarily, I didn’t know a single soul who would take me in that way. And of course I had Nemo with me. So one day when I was scrolling through a random comment, I registered and setup my account. And then I decided to join the relevant subReddits so I can get to, from a distance, experience what life is like for people.

I contributed where I could, I got a few laughs and when I figured out the streak thing is when it became a hook for me to bake it into my daily schedule. You know one of the things that I truly believe is that my life is unfolding exactly how it should. And when I used to see these posts on how people found love on Reddit, there was this little voice in my head that whispered – this is why. So in retrospect I am thankful for the very precise way that I lived my life, the mistakes I made, because they brought me to the threshold. And serendipity struck to have our paths cross. And the rest, as they say is history.

I’m not telling you this to romanticize how we met. That story already writes itself beautifully. I’m telling you because today I understood you a little more and it made me love you differently. I spoke to two strangers who’ve loved doctors through the chaos, and it didn’t make me feel afraid. It made me feel clear: I don’t want to be your rescuer. I want to be your home. The place you can soften, laugh, vent, breathe and be YOU.

And I’m grateful for the full circle of it. Reddit brought me to you, and it reminded me that real love isn’t grand gestures, it’s steadiness. When Nemo was born I kept asking “why,” and someone once told me maybe he was given to me because I’d do right by him. I don’t know about destiny. But I do know I’m choosing you with open eyes and a full heart and I want to do right by you too.

I hope we read this decades from now and smile, because we were worth it and because we kept choosing what’s true.

Love Forever And Always,

XOXO,

A