1/5/2026

T, Mi Amor,

I love you. So damn much. I wanted to start with that today. Because it’s just one of those things that just came back and shone so bright at me today. Not that I don’t feel it everyday, but today especially was one of those days where the sun seems to shine brighter after a bit of a cloudy spell.

What I am about to write to you, I felt when I was driving today. You remember that time when I just screamed into the phone – I loveeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuu babbbyyyyyyyyyyyy. And you laughed at me and said – I love you too baby, but maybe not in the screechy way that you do. LOL.

I love us. And I love how we get back here. Yesterday when we were chatting you said something to me. I had just said this whole thing about how I didn’t want to lose you. And you said – I knowww. But we get to normal always no. You’re right, we always do find our way back to ourselves. And I am glad we do. I think that’s the best part about us.

With this kind of rupture and repair, there’s a beautiful thing that’s happening with us. It’s kind of this feeling, like we are walking and we are holding hands, and when things get difficult, it feels like hour hands just stretch and we go far apart. And then we come back closer. And every time it seems when we go away we go a bit further away. But we always come back even closer. And it feels hella reassuring that no matter how far we stray we can always find our way back.

We’ve hit a little over two months now. And our relationship has become very real now. And becomes more and more real everyday. And I dont mean it in the way that it wasn’t a real thing before. I just mean that it gets more solid as each day passes. And I think that’s a lovely thing. That it’s gaining such solid ground.

I’m not going to lie, I did have some concerns. I probably still do. Because I don’t know what challenges the path forward holds for us. And while I believe you are my soulmate, I also believe something Monica said to Chandler – I don’t believe in soulmates either. I think we love each other and we work really hard at our relationship and that’s what makes us a great couple. I’d like to believe that too. That you and I can build something as solid as Chandler and Monica.

One of the things I promised I would start doing this month was to start trusting and just step boldly into the unknown. Not knowing with certainty. Not seeking certainty. And yet believing and choosing. This is immensely scary for me. You know? Cause for those who have always been forsaken, for those who have only been abandoned, they are wired to seek certainty. Like they want to know that – yes this is permanent.

But I believe that nothing is permanent, except choices. The choices we make. The people who we let stay. But the moments like we had today on the phone, in the car… the screechy love… when I live those moments. I see these glimmers.

They’re like golden pearls dancing softly on the waves in the sea. They’re there just for a split second and they are gone. But no one can deny that they did exist. And you think they are gone, but if you stay a bit longer you will see those glimmers again.

That’s what I feel when I live out our relationship. That’s what I feel when I am with you.

Glimmers.

Love Forever And Always,

XOXO,

A