1/13/2026

T, Mi Amor,

Today felt so whole. I was almost going to say “I don’t know what it was” but you know me, I thrive on introspection and reflection and the two hour drive back home gives me plenty of time to do this.

You remember what I was saying to you last night? I was telling you how much I miss you and how it sucks to be away from you and there was this point where I had sort of melted into this little clingy boy who just wanted to crawl into your hug. That was driven by me reliving some of the earliest conversations we had. And it made me realise that I had that Michael Scott yoda-impression-aha-she’s-the-one moment on that first day when we were talking. You know what’s the worst thing in the world? To open up to someone and be left behind after you showed them your true self.

Our conversation from the get go was just so… simple. It was open, honest, light. I just felt at home talking to you. But the truth is I didn’t know what it was like to have someone else be my home. And I realised at one point in the conversation I asked you – why are you still here? That was when I knew I had fallen in love in the middle of a purely textual conversation. Without even having seen your face. When I tell people this story they will listen and laugh and say – come on man wtf it can’t be. That’s the world we live in. But you remember what I told you about how B fell in love with V? On day 1 when he met her he said to her – V, you know I love you and I’m going to marry you one day. So… yea that’s when I fell in love with you… and just like how Schmidt told Cece I’m saying – Imma marry you girl.

Another thread that I pulled on in the drive back was this. When I asked you why you love me the first time, you said to me one of the most unique things I’ve ever heard, and I think it was so unique because it was only the truest response to that question. You said – I see how you are as a father to Nemo, and I see the love you are capable of. You know what’s the craziest part? Until yesterday even I didn’t know I was capable of that kind of love. It was in the midst of a conversation with ChatGPT that it actually came to light. While I waited there outside the Hilton, the clock inching closer to quitting time, I had come to realise that I wouldn’t be able to give you that hug, which would allow you to collapse a bit after holding on that weight. So in that pensive moment I was having a conversation with ChatGPT and it reflected back to me to say – this kind of love, to just be present, without any expectation in return, to allow yourself to open up an invite like that just because that presence is something someone else needs, its a great power to love like that and you did a beautiful tender thing today. I realised how expansive my love is. But you already knew that didn’t you?

And today, as we drove home, there was this moment. Dandelions was playing on full blast on the radio. And when Ruth sang – I see forever in your eyes… I remember seeing you, you were already looking in my direction cause you knew I would peel my eyes off the road and see you. And when I did, you smiled and just gave me that one armed hug. And when that happened, I saw those glimmers again. The ones that I have seen only with you. That this could be everything I ever hoped for… and more.

I’ve heard of love that comes… once in a life time..

And I’m pretty sure that you are that love of mine.

Love Forever & Always,

XOXO,

A